The opportunity to communicate and co-create with my cosmic sister Suzanne is an incredible fortune for me. It’s a luxurious part of my experiment in Human Design. Only the enlightenments and realizations that visit me in a pulse known only to them can compare to this.
And I suffer because I do not do enough. Because I’m always running somewhere, barely managing to pick up the flag of joint creativity raised by Suzanne. Together, we make the podcast The Heretic Sisters, where we discuss all the possible heretic staff that is interesting to us. And we torment our guests with questions, and our guests appear to be true gifts for our own experiments with knowledge.
But sometimes I don’t understand what my contribution to this project is, why I’m always rushing in several different directions at once. Today, finally, it dawned on me - all I can do in this situation is to share my experiment, how I live it, whether making the podcast or not, rushing around Berlin with all my important and not-so-important affairs.
For me, this podcast is like an anchor, an opportunity to ground myself back into my being. And each episode is lived literally as an event of my life, my experiment. I need time and the opportunity to “savor” the details.
The episode about motivation, which we will record this Friday, was born out of my own misunderstanding of the theme of motivation in Human Design, and Suzanne’s attempt to clarify it. Although, to be honest, it’s quite a complex topic, as my mother likes to say. So, we decided to dig deeper, so to speak.
Thus, the realization that my living experience is what I can share might seem funny to someone. But imagine, it’s a podcast, and I very much enjoy cosplaying as an intellectual, which I actually am. This inner bet on intellect implies that my contribution to the project should be intellectual. And all these emotions - can they really be taken seriously?
In my case (I would even say, in our case with Suzanne :-) ) - yes. And considering the specifics of my life, I simply have no other choice!
As soon as I realized this, I immediately felt relieved, I felt the ground under my feet. I’m going to have some coffee and listen to Ra talk about motivation.
